Hi everyone.....
I thought that I was going to get out of choir for good.....how wrong I was......during the sports day carnival, I had to talk to Ms Tan about the cca transfer. She and I talked for awhile and she asked why I changed my mind to go back to concert band. I tried searching for a very good reason to get me out of it but every reason I gave didn't seem to meet her intention. She said that I was already given a chance to decide or reconsider the choice, which I didn't know the whole three weeks, was given to me to think about it. I did everything the last minute.
Not only that I had forgotten that she said that once the transfer was done, there was no turning back. They wanted to know the decision immediately when I went to see her previously. I wasn't to sure on what I wanted to do so when I decided that I wanted to stay in band, she asks "now why do you say that you want to stay in band?" I told her that I guess I love band too much and didn't want to leave. Then she says " but here you say that you lost passion for it". I know I said that in the previous post. I couldn't come up with a reason.
NOW I have a reason. I thought that I couldn't play the trombone anymore and I was falling behind. After a few months, things started to turn round for me. My paitents actually started to pay off and I made such a reckless decision! I should have never said something like that and I should have waited on how things would turn out in band! I was so stupid to give it so easily! I should have never went for that audition at all! I feel awful. It's like something that you have loved so much was taken away from you completely and you will never get it back, ever!
Not only that my band friends think that I have betrayed them when they saw I was in choir. They are also angry with choir for stealing away their members. The feeling got worse after hearing this. I'm really sad now.......this reckless action of mine is leading me to huge regret.....
I thought that I was going to get out of choir for good.....how wrong I was......during the sports day carnival, I had to talk to Ms Tan about the cca transfer. She and I talked for awhile and she asked why I changed my mind to go back to concert band. I tried searching for a very good reason to get me out of it but every reason I gave didn't seem to meet her intention. She said that I was already given a chance to decide or reconsider the choice, which I didn't know the whole three weeks, was given to me to think about it. I did everything the last minute.
Not only that I had forgotten that she said that once the transfer was done, there was no turning back. They wanted to know the decision immediately when I went to see her previously. I wasn't to sure on what I wanted to do so when I decided that I wanted to stay in band, she asks "now why do you say that you want to stay in band?" I told her that I guess I love band too much and didn't want to leave. Then she says " but here you say that you lost passion for it". I know I said that in the previous post. I couldn't come up with a reason.
NOW I have a reason. I thought that I couldn't play the trombone anymore and I was falling behind. After a few months, things started to turn round for me. My paitents actually started to pay off and I made such a reckless decision! I should have never said something like that and I should have waited on how things would turn out in band! I was so stupid to give it so easily! I should have never went for that audition at all! I feel awful. It's like something that you have loved so much was taken away from you completely and you will never get it back, ever!
Not only that my band friends think that I have betrayed them when they saw I was in choir. They are also angry with choir for stealing away their members. The feeling got worse after hearing this. I'm really sad now.......this reckless action of mine is leading me to huge regret.....
